Confused... what do I do now?

Have you ever felt so lost at times that you don't know what's the next step you're supposed to take or what you're supposed to do and on top of feeling lost and confused you start to worry about the decisions you make and if they are right? I mean you already DON'T know what to do and you're expected to take high-end choices in life.....
Right now I've no idea what to do.... what to say [What to even type] nor what to think..... I'm blank.... completely blank.... and I've been and felt blank for a long time.... at times wondering what am I doing with my life.... and if I'm gonna be a failure.... I mean what's the guarantee that I'm even gonna live tomorrow, so why worry too much over the things that you have no control over, right?
I love my life.. I definitely wouldn't switch it with anyone... I've been blessed with the world's best mom, boyfriend and best friends.... so does the feeling of being a failure crossed my mind and most of the times, stay there? yeah, I definitely have my share of craziness and embarrassments most of the times over which I land up laughing thinking about them now! But why am I so worried.... and I don't know worried what exactly I'm worried over! \

Sigh! Maybe one morning I might wake up and get my answer...

Depressed... then happy.. depressed again... and happy again... uuugghh!!! This constant change of my mood really bugs me!!! Yeah.. it's all a part of "growing up" and learning to keep a check on the emotions.. but this really bugs me big time...

I'm LIkE, whAAaaaa-?! (WTFFFF!!!!)

On the way to work... I'm like whaaaaaaaaaa--!!!! I notice a guy((not gay)) wearing HOT PINK PANTS!!!!!! HOOOTTTT PINKKK PAANNNTTSS!!!! He dazed me with his bright colors... in a sparkling sunny afternoon. No my eyes didn't deceive me!
UUGGGHHH!!!! Have pity on my eyes!!!! There's a logical explanation why I wear glasses! I don't need a reason to go more blind than I already am! Excuse me while I laugh my a** out please! Hot pink pants with an olive green t-shirt!!! yeaahh, I know.. interesting shade of colors! A definite eye catcher.. boy, does he really know how to catch the attention of the ladiesss! LMAO :D :D

Guyssssss!!!!! UGGGHHH!!!!!!! The most annoying and unsatisfied specimen on earth!!!! Never satisfied with anything!!!!!!! I get to know my friend and my ex are bitching behind my back! I'm like-whaaaaaaaaaa--!!!! And I mean HARDCORE bitching!!! I mean seriously.. both of ya'll GGEEETTT A LIIFFEE!!!! One doesn't know me((no wonder his lady love love left him! Wat a loser!!))... the other knows me and both are so braindead, groundless, baseless, bitter,and bored of their own life that they can't keep their noses out of others' lives! Maaannnnn!!! I so pity them both and laugh my head out when I look at them bitching about me!!!!! 'Coz I know I'll always be ten steps ahead of them! LMMAAAOOOO!!! :D :D

OMMMMGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the way to work.... passing the bus stop, I see a muslim family.
In fact, I see a man holding a long thick rod((STOP! RIGHT! THERE! U PERVERTS!)) and threatening to beat up his family with the rod if they don't listen to him! I'm like-whaaaaaaaaaa--!!!! Two tiny boys and his wife covered from head to foot in their usual muslim garb!!! The kids frightened out of their wits, huddled up close to their mother, who was also frightened and leaning againt the pole!
Boy! Was I pissed! But funny thing is I know I can't interfere and help them, 'coz tis is bloody India not an Ameircan or European country!
Remind me again why can't we just eradicate the muslims of the world??!!!
Hitler should have exterminated the muslims rather than the Jews!

FOUND YOU.......

Stuck with losers, surrounded by cheap desperate back biting guys((and here I thought females were famous this!)). A repetitive question constantly revolving around my mind, "ARE THERE ANY NICE GUYS OUT THERE??????" I mean all I've ever encountered were losers and the like!
Everywhere I go, they're present, talk dirty and disgusting about the female kind! Who died and made them creatures with superior knowledge and intellect to actually compartmentalize and make judgments? And how dare they categorize and label the female?
Weird isn't it, that the male can do anything his heart desires but if the female does it, it affects his masculinity and his ego! She is designated every single vulgar, uncouth word in the Oxford Dictionary! Common phrases: "DON'T TALK TO THIS GUY", "DON'T WEAR THIS OR THAT", "WHO IS THIS PERSON YOU'RE TALKING TO?", "WHO'S CELL PHONE NUMBER IS THIS?" the questions go on and on....... Funny thing is we aren't allowed to ask even a single question back at them. Yeahhh... this WAS my conceived notion about males((including my ex)) in general.
Wished and wondered and most importantly HOPEEEEDDDDD if there was a guy somewhere out there who'd defy my conception of the typical male.

Just when I decided to give up hope, in the midst of all, I found him!
THE man who made me "screw the rest of the world"<*quoting advise put forth by a friend of mine*> throw caution to the wind and take a chance at happiness that I never realized I'd given up for another. Happiness doesn't begin to describe what I feel about him((blushing right now!))! He makes me feel like the most happiest girl on earth, even thinking about him brings a smile to my face ((like right now! :P)) Basically he makes me feel good about myself and everything that I've never felt before! Funnily he's a good friend of mine . Guess I've always loved him for a long time but on a different level! Talk about a paradoxical situation!!!!
The person I've always wanted, funny, kind (*yeah, the usual cliched phrase :P!*) and did I mention cute?
Boy is he soooo cute or what!!!! Omg! He definitely is completely different from the usual stereotypical losers that I've had the unfortunate displeasure of meeting and associating with!

Best part is: he's in love with meeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm glad I found you and even more glad I came back...... only, to get you!
I love you...........

The City that never Sleeps

One of the most beautiful cities on earth, NYC is exceptionally diverse with people from all over the world, speaking over a 100 different languages.
Walking on the roads of NYC(Manhattan)in broad daylight, I fell in love! The sophisticated people, tall buildings, Macy's clothes store, Banana Republic, Dolce&Gabbana, NBC studios, HBO, Grand Central Station, Central Park, Rockefeller Centre, Empire State Building, Limos, cute yellow taxis that charge exorbitant amount just to go from one avenue to the next, Park avenue, restaurants, bars, coffee pubs, ten of each in every lane! Can you believe that!?
I fell in love with it all! And that was just during the day! People told me the avenues and streets would confuse me and I would get lost, but I was surprised that didn't happen to me!
I roamed the streets like I was living there!

The Crossroads of the World- Times Square, where the theatres, buildings colorful lights that attracted people! One can't help but stand in one spot and gape, drinking in the beauty all around, especially during the nights! It's like you stepped into an exclusive club consisting of only the rich and the famous! The bright lights on bridges and buildings, catches your eye and makes you gasp with awe and happiness!!!

My friends ask me what I love most about NYC? I say everything!
But this is what I enjoy doing most:
Listening to music in the train & subway to n fro Manhattan...
Walking along the streets, drinking coffee n feeling like a New Yorker...
Sitting on the docks by the Hudson River at night overlooking NJ & Brooklyn bridge& looking at people passing me by...
Walking in Park Avenue & dreaming of owning an apartment there...
Driving from Long Island to Manhattan n singing to the songs on Z100 on saturdays with my aunt n uncle...

Picture This... I'd rather not!!!

Is there any another movie that is as meaningless, dull and superficial as Picture This? I think not! And I thought chic flicks are superficial! Ok, I've heard of parents having trust issues with their children and malicious high school girls slandering others, but this is ridiculous! And to think I was dying to watching the movie! What was I thinking?! A dad that always keeps tabs on his daughter! Talk about insecurities! Seems more like stalking to me! And a girl who does anything to get her "dream man" to notice her! And I mean she does virtually anything! What is happening to the world of cinema?What happened to classic arts, the time-honored oldies that all of us cherish and watch repeatedly? There was absolutely zilch chemistry between Drew Patterson and Mandie Gilbert.
And like a tiny slit in her dress is going to make much of a difference at the much awaited party, when Lisa Cross wore the same dress but without a slit! A big whoopie for the creative style! Ashley Tisdale ought to just concentrate on her candy girl character in The Suite Life of Zack and Cody,where she was more appreciated and lay off producing her own movies! What was she trying to prove? I don't get the picture, no pun intended.

The Web Bot Project - Doomsday(dec. 12, 2012)

The Web Bot Project created by Microsoft was designed in the 90s to make predictions on their stock market value.
Most of you must have heard of Web Bot Project(WBP) and it's ability to predict the future. The WBP has this spider like system that crawls the Internet to search words, exactly like a Search Engine. The bot takes the words before and after the word entered, the texts selected are sent to the main location to get the exact meaning. The concept of the bot is to roam the universe(of course through the internet!) and it's secret holes and hiding places, the past and present and even the future! One of the approaches used was to send a lot of web bots out to look at thousands of lines of detail on the web every day, then send back the results. This process is so complicated that even search engines like Excel cannot compete.
But in 2001, the bot programmers started to notice "coincidental occurrences" apart from the daily stock market predictions and decided to explore it further.
One of the most famous and most accurate predictions of the WBP was in june 2001, the bot predicted that something life-altering that would change the face of the earth and it mankind would occur within 60-90days. Scary isn't it?! And guess what was that life-altering event?
Yup, the destruction of the World Trade Centers a.k.a the Twin Towers in NYC on september 11, 2001!
How can something so scientific as the internet get caught up in something as unrealistic as astronomy or astrology? Well, it has. The mixture of realism and delusion has finally occurred, to the distress of the realists.
Get this, the bot also predicted the ending of the world on December 12, 2012. Not just the bot, but even the Mayans(pre-Columbian Americans often considered to be clairvoyants) predicted that mankind will end in the year 2012 AD. BUT! This end MAY represent a symbolic end, than a literal end. Even more intriguing is the fact that there is scientific evidence that points to a very rare astrological occurrence taking place in 2012. For centuries, the Mayans believed in the existence of a dark rift(the black hole) in the center of the Milky Way and considered it fact. Only recently did scientists discover that it actually does exist.

Hopefully this "symbolic end" is what the talk is all about.